You came like the west wind like the skylark providing all the bliss to me under the sun I thought you are different but you turned out to be like rest .
Guess what we became friends
Very good friends
Eventually we started dating
I started trusting
Every bit of my soul trusted every bit or your word
Then you came touched my soul
And went
Like nothing happened between the two of us
I thought it was love
The best feeling of the entire universe
It turned out to be mirage of happiness
I loved you and cherished your existence
Embracing your flaws in every way I could
Guess what
You left
Leaving no stone unturned I loved you to the core
You left
Without a reason
Without anything you changed
You said you are getting irritated
But that irritation annoyance was only for me
As I started trusting you
You started lying
And breaking me
I waited I thought you said all those
Gave me those butterflies
And made me feel special
And on the cloud nine cause you felt something for me
That’s was just my illusion .
I craved for all this for a long time when I get it was just nothing but a fantasy
A phantasm that broke so soon
I
Why ?
What was my fault ?
That I loved you so much ?
What was I to be blamed for
That I gave you more than you procured
You slept when I weeped
You hurted when I loved
You played when I was serious
You came up with those sugar-coated stuff
When you knew I will believe
Knowing how much broken I was you came and broke me till the last end again
I left no stone unturned in loving
You
You left no stone unturned in hurting me
Weeping the bliss weeping the illusion you
Slept happily like you never cared
They said the person who cares
They said the person who loves
Might hurt you
Won’t go to
Sleep
Knowing that I am sobbing
And deterioting my mental peace and health
My heartbeat is skipping like
Counting every fraction of second
And face turning sorrow and pale why?
Cause I believed cause I trusted
Then you said you had feelings
Was it a joke or just one of your another good lie to bamboozle me
I still talked to
You
Every second
I weeped
Despite tears trickling down my cheeks I talked to you
From giving you every bit of my heart
To telling you every second what I felt
It hurted so badly
Weeping weeping
I talked to you
I thought maybe now
I will hear something
That isn’t a lie
You went like wind you flew
Cause you wanted to sleep
You flew
What was my fault?
Too much of care ,love and happiness
But what if I thought you deserve this and I gave
I thought you to be different
But you turned out to be like the rest
You came
You went
You destroyed
They said not to trust you still I did
They said you tried on everybody out there
They said you had eyes on every girl
Still I listened to my heart not to their voices
In the end you were like the rest why you came then giving all the lost hopes which had faded away in my life ?
When I had known how to stay alone
When I had known that I aren’t made for anybody
Nor do I deserve anybody
You came
Still
You wanted to have that care ,love and attention your heart craved for it
That’s why you came
You knew how immensely I cared and loved you shattered everything
You never had feelings
You came
You went happily to sleep
I destroyed my mental peace
My time my energy
What was my fault that I trusted you oh
Was it really ?
After all this
I accepted your friendship I knew I want you
My heart craved for your existence every second abhishek
It craved so badly I couldn’t say no for your existence in my life couldn’t even stop it from beating
No talks about relationship
Agreed
Agreed on everything
All it wanted was you
All those times I acted
Like a pesky
Atrocious
Fille
Those mood swings
A apology for everything from my side
I did thought I knew it
I wasn’t wrong elsewhere
You got more irritated
And said dont message kirti
I said you could have insulted
Abused me
Even acid attack
I was guilt ridden then
You didn’t understand
You left
Without a word you left abhishek ?
I wake up everyday
With all the hurt
Pain
The love I still have for you
You
Don’t even care
Every day is a new challenge for me
Right now I m still sobbing
You said I m one in a billon
You had billion options
Still you came
You are busy where idk
But you don’t care
You are busy in stalking or flirting
Trying out another new chic
Wasn’t I enough ?
I miss you a little more each day
A little more I miss
Those days
Your immense love
Care
How you understood me when no else would
How you consoled me
Now you aren’t there anymore
Reading those old chats
Seeing the efforts I did to just see that smile on your face which makes my day
For which my heart still craves every single second is like a challenge now
I tried deleting all those
I still kiss your picture
Hug it right
Cause ik in reality you aren’t there
I just hug that picture
And have you in my arms
Why ?
What’ was my fault
You would have told this once and went
Aren’t no girl with a perfect figure
But yes surely a girl with immense love
BY -KIRTI